“Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body.”
– Elizabeth Stone
Alhamdulillah, after 2 years we've been waiting for little baby in our family, finally the pregnancy test came up with 2 red strips :)
This is the best gift for my second anniversary wedding. Yang tadinya suami mau kasih kejutan dengan liburan akhir tahun, eh malah dia yang dikasih kejutan dari si little baby.
The first trimester is full of unknown and worry. Awalnya ga sadar kalau dalam rahim udah ada janin. Because i'm not fell pregnant. Without nausea and intense exhaustion, i fell like my normal self. Tapi memang ada sedikit nyeri di bagian perut, layaknya pre menstruasi syndrom. And it makes me so worry. I would stress thinking something was wrong. I knew that i had to do something to change my worrying ways. It certainly not good for the little baby.
So, we went to the doctor last week, to make sure the pregnancy test. Dan Alhamdulillah ternyata kehamilannya udah berjalan 5 minggu. My first scan was so exciting. Its so amazing to think there is a little human growing inside me. I am fascinated by the whole process of pregnancy. I cant stop touching my belly. The doctor said that everything was right on track. But he still gave me some medicine to assure that my baby still healthy.
Why am i so worrying about this pregnancy thing?
Karena sebelumnya gw pernah punya riwayat keguguran. And it makes me feel so guilty. Sebelum kehamilan ini gw pernah terjangkit virus rubella. Biasanya virus ini dikarenakan konsumsi makanan mentah atau setengah matang (sayuran lalapan, salad, bahkan makanan bakar2an). Oleh karena itu sekarang gw hati-hati banget dalam memilih makanan. I prefer to eat soup rather than steak or satay.
Selain virus, penyebab keguguran kemarin bisa juga karena kesibukan sehingga kecapekan. Maklumlah, jarak antara tempat kerja ke rumah lumayan jauh. And i'm driving my self with manual car. Belum lagi kalau ada tindakan ekstraksi yang memerlukan tenaga besar. Sehingga bisa menimbulkan risiko tekanan pada janin.
Jadi untuk mencegah hal-hal yg ga diinginkan selama kehamilan, gw mengajukan cuti kerja untuk sebulan, sampai plasenta janinnya terbentuk. And now my daily activity full of lazy day. The napping took over. I become lazy and dont want to do anything strenuous incase i harm the baby. That unconditional love already make you insanely protective.
One thing that makes me fell pregnant is my craving are going a bit crazy. Yang biasanya gw makan bisa hanya dua kali sehari, tanpa cemilan. Sekarang makan 3 kali berasa masih kurang. Belum lagi berbagai macam camilan yg harus ada di kulkas. Untungnya suami gw pengertian banget. Dia selalu nyediain cokelat atau kacang hijau buat si bumil ini.
So that's it. That's my take on the first 3 months of my pregnancy. Hope i can enjoying every precious moment of it. See ya next time :)
