Meet our new family member

Hai hai...

Perkenalkan namaku Azzahra Larasati. Aku adalah anggota baru di keluarga kecil bpk Fauzan. Mamaku baru saja melahirkan aku di saat hari Pramuka. Prediksi kelahiranku lebih cepat 2 Minggu dari prediksi USG. Walaupun demikian, aku lahir normal loh. Dengan berat 2.9 kg dan panjangku 47 cm. Untuk ukuran normal, aku termasuk panjang ya.

Pada saat proses kelahiranku, Alhamdulillah berlangsung cepat. Air ketuban dalam rahim mamaku sudah pecah duluan sebelum proses kontraksi. Oleh karna itu, dokter kandungan mengharuskan aku untuk lahir dalam waktu 24 jam. Dengan alasan untuk menghindari infeksi pada tubuhku.

Saat di ruang observasi, mamaku diberi infus untuk memasukkan obat agar merangsang kontraksi. Selama hampir 6 jam, mamaku berjibaku dengan rasa sakitnya kontraksi. Hampir saja Ia menyerah dan memilih operasi Caesar. Untung saja papa serta petugas rumah sakit menyemangati mama untuk tidak menyerah. Dan Alhamdulillah, tepat jam 13.30, aku lahir ke dunia dan langsung telingaku di azan kan oleh papa. ASI eksklusif pun langsung disodorkan padaku.

Setelah menginap di rumah sakit selama dua hari, aku pun diperbolehkan pulang. Selama di perjalanan tak sabar aku ingin melihat rumah baruku. Ternyata benar-benar homy banget. Di taman depan tumbuh bunga mawar putih, seperti menyambut kedatanganku. Kamarku masih bergabung dengan mama papa, karena mereka khawatir jika aku tidur sendiri. 

Selama dua hari di rumah, mama selalu memberikan ASI eksklusif. Karena mama tahu, kandungan gizi dalam ASI lebih baik dibandingkan susu formula. Namun ternyata ASI mama tidak mencukupi kebutuhan tubuhku. Sehingga aku kekurangan cairan, dan menyebabkan kadar bilirubinku meningkat. Karna kondisi serta berat badanku yang semakin menurun, maka aku harus menginap lagi di rumah sakit untuk mendapatkan terapi blue light. 

Mama sedih sekali saat melihat kondisiku yang harus diterapi selama 48 jam, dan asupan makanan ku yang akhirnya ditambah dengan susu formula. Tapi apa daya, karna dokter anak menyarankan untuk mengkombinasikan ASI mamaku. Semoga dengan mengikuti saran dokter, kondisi tubuhku bisa sehat seperti semula.

Setelah dua hari aku dirawat, seminggu kemudian waktunya jadwal imunisasiku. Alhamdulillah saat ditimbang berat badanku naik hampir 6 ons. Dan panjangku sekarang 50 cm. Untuk pertama kalinya aku mendapatkan vaksin hepatitis B. Walaupun sakit sedikit, toh ini untuk kebaikanku. 

Dan sekarang aku sudah menginjak usia tiga minggu. Mama dan papa senang sekali melihat perkembanganku dari hari ke hari. Doakan semoga aku cepat besar ya dan sehat selalu. Supaya bisa bermain dengan sepupu-sepupu ku yang sudah beranjak dewasa. 

My first pregnancy moment

“Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body.”

– Elizabeth Stone

Alhamdulillah, after 2 years we've been waiting for little baby in our family, finally the pregnancy test came up with 2 red strips :)

This is the best gift for my second anniversary wedding. Yang tadinya suami mau kasih kejutan dengan liburan akhir tahun, eh malah dia yang dikasih kejutan dari si little baby.

The first trimester is full of unknown and worry. Awalnya ga sadar kalau dalam rahim udah ada janin. Because i'm not fell pregnant. Without nausea and intense exhaustion, i fell like my normal self. Tapi memang ada sedikit nyeri di bagian perut, layaknya pre menstruasi syndrom. And it makes me so worry. I would stress thinking something was wrong. I knew that i had to do something to change my worrying ways. It certainly not good for the little baby.

So, we went to the doctor last week, to make sure the pregnancy test. Dan Alhamdulillah ternyata kehamilannya udah berjalan 5 minggu. My first scan was so exciting.  Its so amazing to think there  is a little human growing inside me. I am fascinated by the whole process of pregnancy. I cant stop touching my belly. The doctor said that everything was right on track. But he still gave me some medicine to assure that my baby still healthy. 

Why am i so worrying about this pregnancy thing? 

Karena sebelumnya gw pernah punya riwayat keguguran. And it makes me feel so guilty. Sebelum kehamilan ini gw pernah terjangkit virus rubella. Biasanya virus ini dikarenakan konsumsi makanan mentah atau setengah matang (sayuran lalapan, salad, bahkan makanan bakar2an). Oleh karena itu sekarang gw hati-hati banget dalam memilih makanan. I prefer to eat soup rather than steak or satay.

Selain virus, penyebab keguguran kemarin bisa juga karena kesibukan sehingga kecapekan. Maklumlah, jarak antara tempat kerja ke rumah lumayan jauh. And i'm driving my self with manual car. Belum lagi kalau ada tindakan ekstraksi yang memerlukan tenaga besar. Sehingga bisa menimbulkan risiko tekanan pada janin.

Jadi untuk mencegah hal-hal yg ga diinginkan selama kehamilan, gw mengajukan cuti kerja untuk sebulan, sampai plasenta janinnya terbentuk. And now my daily activity full of lazy day. The napping took over. I become lazy and dont want to do anything strenuous incase i harm the baby. That unconditional love already make you insanely protective.

One thing that makes me fell pregnant is my craving are going a bit crazy. Yang biasanya gw makan bisa hanya dua kali sehari, tanpa cemilan. Sekarang makan 3 kali berasa masih kurang. Belum lagi berbagai macam camilan yg harus ada di kulkas. Untungnya suami gw pengertian banget. Dia selalu nyediain cokelat atau kacang hijau buat si bumil ini.

So that's it. That's my take on the first 3 months of my pregnancy. Hope i can enjoying every precious moment of it. See ya next time :)

Tomorrow morning, before you get out of bed, rearrange your mind to love the day. No matter what the day brings, accept everything without judgment. Instead choose to see the beauty and perfection of it all. Know that all challenges are an opportunity for you to progress. And the universe never gives you more than you can handle.

- Kelly Howell - 

Have a wonderful long weekend !

Do you have any plan for the weekend ? Hope you have some wonderful plans for this long holiday (secara liburnya nambah sehari karna perayaan imlek hari seninnya).

How about me ? Well if you really ask about my plan, hmm i have dozens of planning (cailah gayanya), such as going to the Aston poll and get swimming fun time, or just going to the beach and playing around with the Asmat kids :)

But the weather is getting chilly in Jayapura, and no doubt ruin all my plans. It's getting rainy along this day, and i'm just too lazy walking around.
So here i am just staring at my laptop and download some of cozy songs with a cup of tea and orange-date cakes. Or have some relaxed time doing creambath and have a massage (luluran maksudnya).

I was blogwalking around, when i stumbled into the picture of some cuties home design. You should go check for this web when u need some inspirations or interesting ideas for your house. My hubby really love to decorate our home. When i'm busy with my ten fingers on dashboard, i guarante he must be change our painting wall, or renovate the living room or kitchen or bedroom or whatever.

Like this holiday, he plan to change our painting wall in kitchen into greyish ceramic. He said, our kitchen need some changing, the vintage furniture such as tables and cabinet should be in trash cans or giving to people who need those. Well, I said okay when he ask my advice about this idea. I think the kitchen really need more space, because some of old furniture take more half space.
I have a plan to buy a transparant cabinet for the dishes. And if i still have some budget, i will buy a new stove with oven in it. Hoo sound interesting ya, i cant wait shopping at Informa or Pramuka market or via online.

   
How about those picture of classic design ? Very warm and comfy atmosphere in the kitchen ya. I really heart with the white-vintage cabinet in the second picture. Wish my hubby agree with the idea to build a dishes cabinet like that. And of course does not take a lot of space, i hope.

Well that's all our plan for this long weekend, just want to renovate our little house.

Hope you have a cozy weekend pals and stay warm !

The Path That I Choose

What time is it where u are

I miss you more than anything

Back at home you feel so far

Waitin' for the phone to ring

It's gettin’ lonely livin’ upside down

I don't even wanna be in this town

Tryin' to figure out the time zones makin' me crazy

You say good morning

When it's midnight

Going out of my head

Alone in this bed

I wake up to your sunset

And it's driving me mad

I miss you so bad

And my heart is so jetlagged

What time is it where you are?

Five more days and I'll be home

I keep your picture in my car

I hate the thought of you alone

I've been keepin' busy all the time

Just to try to keep you off my mind

Tryin' to figure out the time zones makin’ me crazy

I wanna share your horizon

And see the same sunrising

Turn the hour hand back to when you were holding me.

I recently listening to one of Simple Plan song 'Jet Lag'. They collaborated with our popular band in this country 'Kotak'. We should be proud of them. Jarang-jarang kan ada musisi anak bangsa yang bisa kerjasama bareng band luar. Selain featuring Kotak, Simple Plan juga kolaborasi dengan Natasha Bedingfield untuk lagu yang sama.

I played it over and over again. Because the lyrics reflect my feeling this moment. I really miss my hubby. We both separate with a long long distance place. He is in west region of Indonesia but i am in east region. We have different zone of time.

Maybe all of you readers have a question, 'Why i want to have this kind relationship ?, What the reason for this situation ?'.

The reason is simple, because i'm working as a dentist in Jayapura, and my hubby has a job as a banker in Jakarta. But fortunately i am in the process of mutation. It's mean we will living in the same place and in the same house again. Amin

But i think the process really takes a long time !
Apa sih kerjanya para pegawai-pegawai bagian mutasi-jabatan M*BES ituh ?
Apa yang perlu mereka tinjau lagi ?
Mereka ga memikirkan apa kalo ada suami istri yang terpisah jarak, ruang, dan waktu ?
Mereka ga memikirkan kalo di sini ada seseorang yang kangen keluarganya ?
@#%^*!#$ (aura marah-marah keluar)

'Just be patient, dear honey'. My hubby always calm me when i'm in the bad mood feeling.
'Don't let your ego bear down your carrier.'
'You have to be grateful, your mutation is in process, while some of your friends must stay in this place, living far from their family'.

I really sad when he try to calm me, courage me, but in the same situation, i know he must have same feeling too. I know he's keeping busy all the time, just to keep the feeling out of his mind.

Is this the right path that i choose honey ?
Do we really must going through this situation ?

I miss our great moments, when we having surf in Anyer beach, waiting for beautiful sunset or sunrise, enjoying the 'car free day' every sunday in Sudirman with our bike, playing badminton in Bintaro park, going to 21 cineplex and have some great movies, or just staying in bed cuddle up together, or have a lazy time watching your favourite tv station 'national geographic'.

Really really miss those moments.

PS: If we have doing all the best efforts, pray, be patient, and lets God hands do the rest. InsyaAllah all the problems will get the solutions.

Hijab

Assalamualaikum,

Long time no see ya, hows your day lately ?

Hope all of you have great days :)

And how's my day ?

I'm fine and get better after i decide to choose to wear hijab :)

Iyaa, sekarang Ichiko a.k.a nyonya Fauzan (loh kok ada embel2 'nyonya Fauzan' ?) udah menjalankan kewajiban sebagai seorang muslim : jadi kelompok JILBABERS :)

Alhamdulillah..

Akhirnya aku diberi hidayah sama yang di Atas. Berkat laki-laki yang sekarang menjadi pendamping hidupku.

Hehehe, maap maap baru sekarang updet blog, jadinya banyak peristiwa yang belum terupdet di sini. Termasuk pernikahan aku yang udah setahunan lebih.

Jadi ceritanya si mas Fauzan ini udah mengubah hidup aku, yang Alhamdulillah menjadi lebih baik :) Termasuk mendorong aku untuk menggunakan jilbab, secara adik2 ku udah lebih dulu termotivasi untuk pakai jilbab.

Dulu aku pikir, melihat mereka pakai jilbab kadang terbesit pertanyaan 'Mereka ga gerah apa ya pake pakaian menutupi semua tubuh, termasuk berjilbab?', 'Ribet kali ya sebelum berangkat ke kampus musti make jilbab dulu', 'Rusak ga sih kulit kepalanya kalo seharian tertutup jilbab gitu?'.

Astagfirulloh,, Kok bisa ya dulu aku punya pikiran seperti itu :(

Tapi sekarang setelah memakainya sendiri, ga ada tuh kekhawatiran seperti itu. Yang penting niat dalam hati bahwa sudah menjadi kewajiban seorang wanita muslim untuk menutup semua aurat, termasuk rambut.

Dan beruntungnya aku dikelilingi oleh orang2 yang selalu mendukung aku untuk menjalankan kewajiban seorang muslim, termasuk mengikuti pengajian setiap minggunya. Sebenarnya suamiku pula yang memperkenalkan aku pada suatu kelompok pengajian keluarganya. No wonder ya si Mas ini kerja di perbankan syariah pertama di Indonesia.

Alhamdulillah, ga henti2nya aku bersyukur sama yang di Atas untuk semua rejeki yang Dia limpahkan. Termasuk memberikan suami yang semoga bisa menjadi imam yang baik dalam sisa hidupku ini. Amin Amin YRA



“Hai Nabi, katakanlah kepada istri-istrimu, anak-anak perempuanmu, dan istri-istri orang Mukmin, hendaklah mereka mengulurkan jilbab mereka ke seluruh tubuh mereka. Yang demikian itu supaya mereka lebih muda untuk dikenal, karena itu mereka tidak diganggu. Dan Allah adalah Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang” (Q.S Al Ahzab : 59)

Naive

Sorry.. that during our relationship
you need to faced my inner bitch
the one that will confused you
and maybe hunt your heart
Sorry.. that I always said what's on my mind,
without thinking if I might make u blush or
hurt you in instant second...
Sorry that I hurt you,
Sorry that I make you feel like a rubbish,
unappreciated..
I will always blame my naiveness on that,
and it's stupid.
I think I'm just a coward
who's afraid to admit that i'm in love,
Fear that if i do
Which i already have =(