The Path That I Choose

What time is it where u are

I miss you more than anything

Back at home you feel so far

Waitin' for the phone to ring

It's gettin’ lonely livin’ upside down

I don't even wanna be in this town

Tryin' to figure out the time zones makin' me crazy

You say good morning

When it's midnight

Going out of my head

Alone in this bed

I wake up to your sunset

And it's driving me mad

I miss you so bad

And my heart is so jetlagged

What time is it where you are?

Five more days and I'll be home

I keep your picture in my car

I hate the thought of you alone

I've been keepin' busy all the time

Just to try to keep you off my mind

Tryin' to figure out the time zones makin’ me crazy

I wanna share your horizon

And see the same sunrising

Turn the hour hand back to when you were holding me.

I recently listening to one of Simple Plan song 'Jet Lag'. They collaborated with our popular band in this country 'Kotak'. We should be proud of them. Jarang-jarang kan ada musisi anak bangsa yang bisa kerjasama bareng band luar. Selain featuring Kotak, Simple Plan juga kolaborasi dengan Natasha Bedingfield untuk lagu yang sama.

I played it over and over again. Because the lyrics reflect my feeling this moment. I really miss my hubby. We both separate with a long long distance place. He is in west region of Indonesia but i am in east region. We have different zone of time.

Maybe all of you readers have a question, 'Why i want to have this kind relationship ?, What the reason for this situation ?'.

The reason is simple, because i'm working as a dentist in Jayapura, and my hubby has a job as a banker in Jakarta. But fortunately i am in the process of mutation. It's mean we will living in the same place and in the same house again. Amin

But i think the process really takes a long time !
Apa sih kerjanya para pegawai-pegawai bagian mutasi-jabatan M*BES ituh ?
Apa yang perlu mereka tinjau lagi ?
Mereka ga memikirkan apa kalo ada suami istri yang terpisah jarak, ruang, dan waktu ?
Mereka ga memikirkan kalo di sini ada seseorang yang kangen keluarganya ?
@#%^*!#$ (aura marah-marah keluar)

'Just be patient, dear honey'. My hubby always calm me when i'm in the bad mood feeling.
'Don't let your ego bear down your carrier.'
'You have to be grateful, your mutation is in process, while some of your friends must stay in this place, living far from their family'.

I really sad when he try to calm me, courage me, but in the same situation, i know he must have same feeling too. I know he's keeping busy all the time, just to keep the feeling out of his mind.

Is this the right path that i choose honey ?
Do we really must going through this situation ?

I miss our great moments, when we having surf in Anyer beach, waiting for beautiful sunset or sunrise, enjoying the 'car free day' every sunday in Sudirman with our bike, playing badminton in Bintaro park, going to 21 cineplex and have some great movies, or just staying in bed cuddle up together, or have a lazy time watching your favourite tv station 'national geographic'.

Really really miss those moments.

PS: If we have doing all the best efforts, pray, be patient, and lets God hands do the rest. InsyaAllah all the problems will get the solutions.